reminiscence

thinking back for the past 2 years plus.
someone special came into my life.
but left 2 years plus later.
and thus this special someone has made a great impact on me.
every single time, i think of that person, i dont know whether to be smile or cry.
happy cos i once had this happy cheerful memory,
OR sad cos i have lost this special someone?
so i guess you can tell how much, how deeply, how truly, how special this relation with the special someone is to me.
although it has been 5 months, i still cant forget this person.
even with all the distractions, i still cant give up.
even when all my friends cheer me up, i still cant.
i cant, i cant, i cant.
damn it.
why is it so tough? so difficult?
cos of the deep bond we shared during the two years plus?
yes i'm sure.
and so i'm very sure that i want this special person once again.
i'm being very blatant here already.
but it's of no use if that person doesnt even read this.
hurry, i want to pass you your long-overdued bday present.
cos there are some things in there that cannot be delayed passing to you.
cos i wanna make me heart-felt feelings and thoughts known to you.
i miss you and i still love you as much.